#also TW

[wendig1rl]

When i was younger my mum went though depressive episodes so bad that she didn't get out of bed or eat or drink for days

My dad had a drug problem a long time before I was born, his dad was an abusive alcoholic and his mum (my nan) was never there properly because she was still coping with the trauma of being s/a'd as a kid, my dad's brother is now a non-functioning alcoholic

Anyway I think my mental health problems could possibly be genetic

[georgecunt]

they made lowkey merch with them in it and it was just george and dream because yeah it was pride and it was lowkey and no one needs to know more thsn that

[partoftheairforce]

the dream

[lychniis]

okay, so if i were to share a basic intro to my original universe ( and characters ), would you like to be tagged in it?

because um...i'm done XD. well at least i'm, done with an intro...still so much to do...

[emlos]

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[nddbhffrt]

My new cast iron has a non-stick (Probably teflon) coating. Don’t hmu. The object itself has betrayed me and I’ve probably made it dangerous to cook on by using it like it was raw iron. I’m so stupid and sad right now. I also feel very ungrateful and like I’m a piece of shit.

[piper-y]

kill yourself by bo burnham is stuck in my head and i think that really describes my mental state rn 

[i-am-loco]

Dear youtube: im not a fucking furry

[intheicyairofnight]

DO NOT TOUCH THE CHILD WHO SURVIVED SEXUAL ABUSE OH MY GOD STOP TOUCHING HIM I DON’T CARE THAT YOU’RE TRYING TO BE NICE

[kahtpierce-blog]

hello

it’s me

[kerinara]

My fears are absurd. My anxiety is all over the place and I’m losing sleep over things that happened nearly three years ago. You fucking ruined me. You left me to raise myself. I was nothing but an annoying bitch to you, right? An irritating kid who thought they knew everything. You didn’t give a shit about me. You shot me down and made me bleed inside and out; made me think death was the only way out of this. I was nine. I was nine years old and you had me losing my mind hiding away for hours, blinded and shaking with fear. No kid should fear that their own father is going to kill them. Every single time. Every single night. Seven years. All I’ll ever see myself as is a waste of life. After all, that’s what I was in your eyes. That’s all I’ll ever be in your eyes. Tell me my scars are ugly and I’ll show you why I bleed.

[outerspaceman]

I am honestly so pissed off and disgusted with you. 

you've lied, cheated on people, used people for your benefit, abused people mentally and physically, even basically raped people with the words "I love you, you mean everything to me" 

and now you've fucked up someone who is so important to me I can't even begin to explain how they make the stars feel like sunshine to me

someone so important and that has helped me through so much

and I can't even say that you ruined us for me, because of you they're scared and terrified and I can't do anything about it to help

you disgust me everything you did. You're probably the only person in this entire world that I know and hate this much

I can't believe every single thing you did. I regret the fact that I could've helped them avoid you, but I didn't because the world doesn't work that way. 

But now I'm here and I care. 

And what really matters is that in the end I'm going to be the one who is here, and not you. 

If I ever see you again I don't know what I'd do. 

I fucking hate you so much. How dare you ruin my friend's emotions this way. 

Fuck you straight to hell. I hope you suffer through something in your life, because the world only knows you deserve it. 

[end1ess-fantasy]

fun fact

(also if reading someone talk about serious life problems sound intimidating to you id just suggest skipping this post.)

This is really really weird for me to finally say- but i've had a private blog for almost a year! I've recently made a lot of important decisions for my self these past few weeks, but this is probably one of the ones that make me the most nervous. Talking about this side blog on my main one is really hard because this side blog is super personal, more personal then I had ever intended my main (or any other blog) to be.

Another thing that I've realized (especially looking at this private blog) is that there is something... up with me????

This is also really hard to talk about. For about a year now I've noticed that my mental health is suffering in a way I can't really explain (and the thought of talking to doctors make me really anxious due to past experiences anyways) and originally that blog was supposed to be something to help me get through whatever it was that I experiencing. It failed, but in a way helped me realized that something was not healthy. Its also made me realize that this is something I've tried to deal with with my entire life- and have only started failing miserably these past few months.  Im moving in less than a month, and that decision was solely made because of the way I have felt this past year. Among other things, I'm determined to make this summer about taking care of myself (and not feeling guilty about putting myself first either), and so I'm planning on making this side blog a record of that process starting in june. And even though I'm afraid to talk to a professional about seeking help I can start to help myself on my own (and use this post and that blog as a roundabout way of letting at least some people know instead of talking to a professional.)

[shipwrex-blog1]

im hungry but no

[stridirks]

i ate the tater tots and now im gonna watch kill la kill til i stop having bad thoughts